I have come to understand that my story is the best way to understand my work sometimes. I also believe there is deep medicine when we tell our stories…

On the outside, I had it all from the moment I was born. I had it easy and was a perfect child and then a very rebellious and troubled teen and young woman. People still thought I had it all, I just needed to get my self together. On the inside, I died at 2 years old. I wouldn’t remember this though until 35 years later. The death was slow and also instant and when you die, you look to everyone else to figure out who you are. I became many “versions” and I eventually fell so deep into shadow and wished my life away to the point where my soul was hardly stitched into my body. I went down every hellish initiatory path on the checklist.

I saved my life with plant medicine in 2009. I understood deeply for the first time what a gift this life is. However, you can put a soul back into a body but if the soul still has a part not wanting to live, trying to just survive or run…it won’t work. That looked like a medical trauma that shut my body and brain down and left me in a frozen state for a decade. I had to re learn to read, walk, and was barely functioning physically.

The truth I was after was too overwhelming for my body to hold. I just thought I was sick, so did the doctors. When my psychologist would ask me why I kept going, I would instinctually respond, “I’m meant to help others.” I had no clue how that would be possible when I couldn’t even walk.

A series of divine events led me to my shamanic teacher and my life began to unravel rapidly. Everything that wasn’t mine was shedding. I kept showing up, kept feeling more alive and remembering who I always was. It was hard work but I kept going until I found the point in time where I died and then, I began my path to fully living.

The things we go through in our lives, the shit that feels like it’s not ours…it is our life. All of it. It’s what we are here to clear and transmute. It’s what made me who I needed to be for my work and to be of service. We are always exactly who we are supposed to be even when we finally begin living, decades after we were born, still right on time.

I say that I can’t explain this work because of stories like this, I am simply the vessel and what flows through is often understood and also completely beyond my knowing.

The labels of this work, or understanding, it does not matter. It is in the willingness to receive where the miracles unfold. The miracle of connecting me to a deep remembrance about to unfold more clearly, and this morning, the beautiful reflection of how the Divine is always flowing through and weaving tapestries.

In many ways, every time a client trusts me and The Magdalene Field, they are also deeply healing me as I can continue to understand my own life journey with Divine and how grateful I am that it all was for this.

I hope that whatever you might be holding, whether known or not, is held tenderly by you and the people you let in your life.

I Hope you know that your struggles hold your gifts and keys to your freedom. I hope you choose to face them when they come knocking at your heart.

May we all be free in our true essence.